Hey guys,
Long ass time, and no talk. No activity is more like it. Xanga totally died. X.x I was forced to get onto Myspace and yeah....So, a lot's happend. A lot. I'm a senior. About to eighteen. Uhh......have had multiple boyfriends since Chris. O.O I read the blog I had posted-it's teh pretteh but I sound crazy. *shrugs* I am crazy. Anyways...no boyfriend now, but like 3 guys who like me...that I know of >.> but yeah. Life's....okay. Not bad, just very busy with school. I've been sick since tuesday with a cold, and last week I had teh flu. It's sucked, still does. I don't know if I'll go to school tomorrow or not, I'm honestly kinda hoping not, that way I can make sure I'm actually over this shit before I go back to school. If I go back tomorrow I'll probably still be hacking and wheezing all over people-non-intentionally of course. But yeah, I don't know what  else to say so laterz much....
                                                             Mealz

OMG EVERYONE ON MYSPACE SHOULD DDDDIIIIIEEEE!!! IT SUCKS, IT SUCKS, IT SUCKS....and no one's ever going to read this besides me. -.- It's great being invisible. Kismet is depressed-Stephen I hope you read this! YOU CAUSED MORE FSCKIN PROBLEMS THAN YOU SOLVED YOU BASTARD! AND YOU HURT MY FRIEND! I know being angry doesn't help. But it's just so much fun. -_- All she does is mope around, spaz out, and cry. It's very tiring. I don't know what to say to her anymore. Because sorry doesn't seem to fill in the silences and the gaps. I have a boyfriend, his name is Chris, I love him very much. And yes I do mean that. Mom's cooking supper but all I can taste is this dry dust in my mouth and an empty feeling in my stomach. My eyelids droop but I won't go to sleep. Getting up early is sacrifice but I'll do it for you. The bandana on my head seems to mean something but I don't know what it is. The cut heart on my hand is so you can hold it in yours and squeeze when you need. We cried together saturday, on the banks of the Brazos. It was very touching indeed. I laid my head on his chest  and it was my right hand he squeezed.  There was yelling in the background. Even a crash or two. But we ignored the other sounds and laughed at the music across the way. This may seem a bit poetic. Maybe it's in my head. But I will laugh and then I'd cry. If ever I found you dead. You cut yourself above your eye and then some down below. I run my fingers over the cuts and softly ask you no. You said that I'm no better, and quickly touch my hand. I look down at my lap and sigh yet once again. You hand me Seether lyrics. I love them one and all. But the always seem to remind me of that long and darkened fall. You helped me up out of the dark. For that I owe you my life. You say you can open up to me. I'm so glad that you believe. I want to spend forever in your arms. Because it's where I feel at home. I mean this when I say it. Contrary to popular belief. I am not a whore of any kind. I'm yours and yours to keep. I've lost my inspiration now. My train of thought is gone. So I'll leave you with these parting words. I love you. Remember that.

I'll write more later...maybe

Hello everyone...umm don't have much to say just thought I should maybe update. Went to see Date Movie last night w/ Saramis, Christina, Renee, Justin, Stephen, and Eddy <3...Then we went to hang out at Tina's-was fun but really unorganized and last minute. Oh well...school's tomorrow-I want to go but only to see someone...not going to say who. But yeah, I have to clean my room sometime today 'cause I promised. But I really don't feel like it-oh well. I'm about to go sleep for a bit. XP Only I would go to sleep at 3:05 in the afternoon. Well I suppose I'll talk to you whenever the next time that my lazy ass gets on here to type another random post. I'm doing fine btw, emotionally that is. I'm rather happy but slightly confused about something and it's putting a damper on things a bit. Oh well, have a wonderful day to anyone. The weather helps everything right? Cold and wet-woohoo!

         Tootles
                         Mealy